Pity Party For One Please...

I'm throwing myself a pity party. I was so sure I was pregnant this month and low and behold, AF shows up yesterday. What a jerk. This was our first month ttc since the mc and for some reason my hopes were EXTREMELY high. Not doing that again!

Well, I guess I'm done feeling sorry for myself.

25 Months Old

 At 25 months, Avery:

-wears size 18-24 months, 2T, and some 3T clothes. Wears size 6 shoes and size 5 diapers

-weighs 27lbs and is 32 3/4" tall

-has some favorite phrases such as "I sure do!", "Don't talk about it", & "Whatcha doin?!"

-went to VBS for the first time and LOVES it

-is growing up more and more each day. She continually surprises me with new things she says

-is really good about saying please, thank you, and sorry

-loves to sing along with songs

-has an AMAZING memory

-still has 2 bottles a day. I'm slowly getting rid of it but it's tough!

-won't nap in her crib anymore. She sleeps in it at night but wakes up in the middle of the night to get into our bed a lot of the time. I think we are going to make the switch to a toddler or twin bed soon

A Hello Kitty 2nd Birthday Party

We had Avery's birthday party on her actual birthday (May 5th). I was really pleased with how it turned out and Avery had a blast! We were also blessed that my in-laws, brother in law, sister in law, and two nephews came from Massachusetts to celebrate with us. 

 Typical picture of Avery with her cousins

 The girl loves cake!

She got shy when everyone sang Happy Birthday to her. It was so cute!

 My sister in law made the adorable cake

 Photo banner of Avery every month from age 1 to 2

I can't believe my baby doll is 2! I'm loving this age and can't wait to spend many more birthdays with her!

2 YEARS OLD!

 At TWO years old, Avery:

-wears size 18-24 months, 2T, & some 3T clothes, size 5 diapers, and size 6 shoes

-learns new words and phrases every day

-said "I love you" to me for the first time!

- says "gimme kiss" and it's the cutest thing EVER

-knows how old she is. When asked how old she is, she responds with "two" and puts two fingers up

-loves to take pictures with Mommy

-still loves her milk in a bottle. It's going away this month, though!

-has become quite attached to a stuffed Tigger. She takes it everywhere and the stuffing is basically out of the neck where she holds it.

-has taken an interest in Winnie The Pooh movies

-likes to wear her Hello Kitty backpack

-loves stickers

-favorite food is ham

-likes to count things

23 Months Old

At 23 months old, Avery:

-wears size 18-24 months & 2T clothing and size 6 shoes

-wears size 5 diapers

-says "um..like..uh" all the time (oops! Wonder where she got that from?!)

-is very good at matching objects

-loves stickers and coloring

-can count to 10

-is repeating EVERYTHING

-always says "3,2,1 GO!"

Easter 2012

Avery had a lot of fun this year for Easter. Saturday we took her to an egg hunt at the local fairgrounds. Although she was a little confused at first, she caught on and loved it! She grabbed all of the candy and no eggs (smart girl!).

 Then, we went to Grandma and Papa's to color eggs. She really enjoyed it and her favorite part was shaking the eggs in glitter.

  

On Easter Sunday we went to church and then to my parent's house.

 She got an Easter basket from Grandma and Papa

 and Mommy and Daddy.

 I think her most FAVORITE part of Easter though, was the chocolate! That girl knows how to eat a chocolate bunny!

Down Days

I've been feeling pretty down these past few days. I think about the miscarriage EVERY day, but sometimes it just hits me hard. I've just been feeling a little depressed and crying on and off. It doesn't help that almost every time I log onto Facebook there is a new pregnancy announcement. Then I start thinking "that's not fair" "that person doesn't deserve it as much as me" and I have to stop myself. Those thoughts are destructive and don't do any good. God is the only one that can make those judgments.

I'm 5 weeks past the d&c and still waiting for AF to show up. The waiting is terrible! My doctor said to wait 3 months to ttc because the risk of another miscarriage is higher right afterwards. I'm not sure that's entirely true. I'm hearing of other people trying right after they get their first cycle back, though. Also, I'm seeing people getting pregnant the cycle right after their miscarriage and everything turns out perfectly. Can anyone give me any advice about that? I really don't want to wait 3 months, but the thought of another miscarriage is just UNBEARABLE.

I'm so thankful that I have this little girl to make me smile!